wednesday 14th july 2010

its wednesday once more and time does change some things, ive picked up some more hours at work which means i know have to wake up at 6:30 in the morning to do an hours work and then come home again. oh well its extra money.
well last week i was able to see a side of humans that i dont want to see. i had always known that women could be harsh if they were upset but the way this woman was being. just because she isnt centre of attention any more. why is it that words can hurt so much? i watched her walk in to the room her face like stone hardly craking a smile as she passed me. "cup of tea?" she asked entering the kitchen. i of course accepted. it was strange something was different about her. i follwed her in. she didnt want to speak to me. then in walked some one else the caretaker and she was my best friend all of a sudden laughing and joking like we had always been friends. it was so faulse. and so it went on as others came in her niceness towards me became more and more over powering. until my friend appeared and that was it, i was ignored in favour of the children. i left the room feeling as if i wasnt wanted at all. it was when she told me that my other coworker doesnt get nice things for the kids like she used. i was there when she was in charge it was no different the menu hasnt changed. the kids have no problem with the way things are run but she is turning the parents against our team leader all because she hasnt got the guts to move on with her life.

any way maybe im just taking it to heart! i am looking forward to this weekend though i am off to a friends house for a party weekend! should be a lot of fun!
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lets begin

my name is Elisa Riley, age 21; im from the outside a perfectly normal girl with a perfectly normal average life. i work in a school with two very nice women and one not so nice together we run a breakfast and afterschoolclub. i live with my parents and my brother. we have three cats. like i said a normal llife.
i guess really everybody wishes their life was different in some way but for me i cant stop thinking about it. all i want from life is to be writer and to not have to worry about money. i spend my life living inside my head, inside my imagingation. i pretend that i can fly or that i have a secrete that only my closest of friends now about. i suppose in a way i wish i was more than just a normal average human pottering on with my life just like everybody else. i wonder to myself sometimes is other people live like this or is it simply that i havent grown up yet?
still i decided to sit down and write my story to let the world know what an ordinary girl can do.
maybe one day i'll be able to tell you that i have achived my goal and become a real writer. but for now i think i will just blog to you. i'll tell you what i see and how i understand it. i guess what im saying is if you feel the same as me then let me know.
i think thats enough for now, when i find something interesting i'll write about it.
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